Hmmp.. tomorrow sailing off again .. for 5 days.. long long ah..
have been having fun the past 2 days.. out till 3 am on Friday.. n yesterday till 7am..
out drinking with my best friends on Friday.. n last night.. went out for a movie w monkey.
then join her n friends to Kbox..
hmmmp.. am now having alot of things to think about..
haha.. dunno what to have for title.. haiz..
just came back from a day sailing. n also started to cook again after so long time of no cooking..
lucky.. my cooking skill did not go down the drain too much.. haha..
hmmm.. 3 days already men!! no time to go to gym.. ah!!!!
feel like so soft now..
n tomorrow still got to go for DCTC training.. should be fun i guess.. will get wet all the way for the bottom up.. anyway.. if any of the YTWO flute section did come across this posting,...
GIRLS.. I MISS YOU ALL ALOT.. !!!!! really wish that i do have the time to go to school to see you girls.. n listen to the section! hmmm.. hope in the near future bah..
counting down to the major sailing.. about 51 days to go.. ( feel really like not going for this trip,
going to miss every thing here.. haiz)
Wah!! Finally .. have been having problem logging in.
things is getting really very busy now a days.. as you get older.. you will find that 24 hours a day is never enough.. haiz..
sailing after sailing.. work after work.. haha.. really wish time will pass faster .. really cannot wait to get out of here.
going to sent in my early release form very soon.. hopefully will be approve without any problems.
haha .. if very thing is smooth sailing.. i will be out by next year 110709.. hehe..
then .. by end of next year will be at USA working n studying..
Pray hard!!!! every thing will go smoothly.. AMEN!!
what am i busy with.. i also dunno.. i am just doing what i really like to do.. which is bodybuilding.. cook? yah.. that is my job.. i love cooking too.. but not in the navy.. one more year to go.. n i will be out.. ( hopefully!!!!) i really have no motivation working in the navy.. not that is not good at all.. just dun find any reason to be ... have been sick.. for a while now..
I WANT TO GO BACK TO STUDY!!?!?!?! but where do the money come from.. if next year i really get to get out of here.. what am i to do.. wish that i can just go for study. but.. what about the money?? who will support my family.. ? do i really have to work n study.. i know that i cannot do that.. i dun want to.. that way i will not be able to do my best.. then.. if i just go straight to work in a hotel.. what then.. ??!?! i will take a longer time to get up there!!!!!
NO! i dun wish to stay in this place.. i feel like i am so slack ever since i get into this GREAT navy... get me out someone!!!?!?!?!?!
it has been so busy for me.. haiz..
thinking of deleting this blog soon.. anyway i dun have time for it anymore..
oh yah.. things seems to be better for me .. haha.. but still do have some EMO problem now n then.. haiz..
some times i just wish God would take away my feelings loh..
but i know is silly to wish for that.. haha
so .. i still thank God for creating me a emotional person.. haha or should i say.. ROMANTIC..
HAHA
just joking.. well .. God is really great to me.. n i found the reason for me to live a happy life.. haha .. HAVE YOU?
HEHE.. hmmp.. where should i start..
well there is lots of things i want to thank Father for...
is not that i have no more problems at home or at work.. but is just that it really feels great to know God.. he is really great.. just no words that i can say or use to describe him.. HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD. JESUS CHRIST... my Father, n friends, my lord.... hehe..
so yah.. so in love with him...... i want to thank him for every single thing .. be it good or bad.. because i know he loves me.. like a Father who care n love his child... n i wish i will forever be drown in his love .. that's all i want.. because.. his love is every thing... haha.. yah. prise the lord....
hello!..
i know.. you think that this blog is died right?.. hnmmm.. i feel like it tooo..
but... still..
i am ok... just busy .. so deeply in love.... DEEPLY IN LOVE..
WITH GOD.. is so great to be a child of God... my friends out there..
give him a try!. n you will know.. how great is our GOD... haha....
oh yah.. i started to practise my Flute again.. if not because of Father..
i would not have done so... SO... yah... i am forever great full to have found him.. hehe...
so.. yah.. Anyone out there.. want to stat from somewhere.. only you are really very lose..
let me know.. n come to church with me k.. hehe.. take care....
When there is nothing to blog about.. nothing that seems to be interesting in my life now..
every thing is about work n nothing more.. every thing is about my family..
i lose my self.. not able to do whatever i like.. not able to go where ever i want..
not even know why am i doing this for.. when will i be able to .. live my own life..
the only love n hope i have is from the lord.. Father , God most high..
i dun want anything .. nothing.. i just want to be in his house.. his arms..
everything i do.. is working towards Father now.. he is my motivation.. he is my hope..
he is the one who loves me more then anyone on earth... more then anyone i know..
How i wish i can be right by his side soon.. very soon...
but not now.. there is still lots of things that he want me to do.. not yet.. sadly..
i have to live my life fully... for Lord, Father.. My God .....
ah well .. have not been blogging for weeks liao... haha.. really am tried n busy with work n study.. hmmm.. a friend of mine just went over sea to work.. FOR 2 YEARS!!!!! ahhhhh
i am going to miss her like crazy loh.. hmmm..MMM
time flies really fast .. really..
still do miss ytwo .. but after reading some of their blogs.. haha.. guess they are really doing very well.. YTWO.. JIA YOU!!!
as for me.. my family seems to have big problems .. but non of them want to know.. haiz.. nvm..
well i just do what ever i can loh.. haha.. after all.. this is already my best.. nothing more that i can do mah.. pray that God will do the rest bah..
anyway.. i started to change alot of my thinking .. on life.. haha.. n also on who should i go out with.. hehe.. it seems to me that i am much more happier now.. but still lonely lah..
How i wish that i will meet my right girl soon.. haha.. to share my happiness n joy.. n to be with me when i am down.. hehe...
ah yoh.. nvm.. is just a dream for the time being.. as for now.. is work n study that is the most important.. N ALSO NEVER FORGETTING.. LORD, GOD, MY HEAVENLY FATHER.. hehe
I LOVE YOU.>...
hmmm.. just came back from sailing again.. haha.. not that bad lah.. very busy.. because 1 man down.. only get to sleep 2 hours for 48hs....
still thinking of them.. n tomorrow will be the first day i am not going back liao.. hmm.. nvm
anyway.. reach Singapore at 1630.. them quickly rush to meet my best friends for dinner.. haha
have a "ok " meal in this TAO restaurant.. ( haha.. the boss may be my Long lost brother)
the food there not too bad.. but the service i think is good in general..
have been studying..my day now is just three things happening.. work, study n gym.. very tiring ha..... sometimes so sleepy .. haha.. too long have not been touching the books liao..
ANYONE OUT THERE FREE TO STUDY WITH ME ON THE WEEK ENDS??! cannot study at home lah.. will end up sleeping.. haiz....
10 years.. finally letting go.. is never as easy as it seems.. have been thinking about it for a month..
n now i did it.. finally..
dunno what to say.. just am depress.. sad n dunno why. the feeling is like blue sky turns to grey!!
anyone know? haha.. i dun think so.
feel like i have fail totally.. but i did my best i possibly can for ytwo.. hmmm.. No regrets i believe.. after all .. is like free labour for 5 years liao.. hmmm.
My best friends are betting .. that i will go back within a month.. n that i will never be able to let go..
i really dunno.. REALLY DUNNO...
lots of words i wanted to tell them.. so much to say.. so.. so.. but in the end.. .. nothing ..
all i wish you YTWO is that you guys will quickly grow up.. love the band.. love to play music.. not just come for the cca points.. be a very strong band.. n prove yourself .. is not just a cca.. take it as a subject
i love ytwo very much.. is my every thing .. but now.. is the past..
hope one day.. i will be back. n that time.. i will be able to teach better.. n help you guys more. or even ..
achieve one of my dreams.... to be the band conductor of ytwo.... . . . . sad...............
hmmm.. today in general.. hehe.. is a happy day.. a bit EMO in the morning .. but i guess is all over.. i finally am able to put them down.. after 10 years .. hmmm..
i believe is Father, lord, god.. heehe .. that want me to.. To carry on with life.. n start doing some things for myself..
Well , i will still be there guys.. no worries.. is just that from now on i will not be putting you guys as my number one thing in live anymore.. guess that will not mean anything to you bah..
really wish you guys all the best.. n remember my friends.. never give up so easily.. fight till the end .. n most importantly.. every thing you do.. make sure is the right way. not the dirty ways.. stay as one.. protect n be with ,n for each other.., N you will Excel.. i believe you will.
MY GOD is with you.. he is .. hehe..
hi.. am back from 4 days sailing.. AHAHA.. so happy.. hmm. cut my fingers!!
anyway.. now a days, my fingers feel swollen at times.. hmmm.. guess is because of my work as a chef bah.. having to work in both very hot n cold places ..
worried , hope that it will not get any worst.. my grand father is also a chef .. n when he gets older, which is now, his fingers swollen up.. like jumbo hot dogs.. :p... hehe..
NOT goinG to happen to me i hope.. haha.. hmmm.. dunno if tomorrow will have band.. should be checking it out later.. got some important things that i need to tell the band..
Anyway.. things seems to become clear to me.. what to do n what should not be done.. some times i am thinking, is it time for me to let go n carry on with what i should be doing for myself.. is yet to be know.. lets hope i can find the answer tomorrow.. hehe..
most importantly.. I know i am a happy man.. blessed with lots of great friends , like YOU, n also under My Fathers wings.. Lord.. I love you.... THANK YOU....
HAIZ. just came back from sailing again.. guess the busy sailing days are back again. every week with out fail.. next week sailing for the whole week again..hmmm..
again again again...
i am really starting to get sick of what is happening.. i dunno if i can carry on like this.. i really love to do what i am doing .. but with him always keep changing his mind .. never fail to push every bad things, that happen, to others..( in the first place , is he who wanted it that way ,most of the time .if not all!!)ME having to keep silents.. is just not me.. i really dunno if i am doing the right thing or not.. really wish that i can be like last time.. just with my sisters..
really want to tell him that i dun think i am fit enough to be. or should i say i dun like the way he do things.. ( just not right to me)... n just want to be like the pass..
i pray that Father. will give me a guide on this.. should i drop it n carry on to do my part OR keep going on..
Sisters.. i need some words of advice from you all.. thanks..
Many a time .. i tried to tell him how should things be done.. n every time is a 'OK'.. but in the end is still the same.. how . is it really true that if you cannot change a person then dun bother to.. the standard of every one are different.. so even if you have a higher standard.. that does not mean you should expect the same standard from them..
but.. what should i do then.. to close one eye n pretend every thing is ok??!!
i really dunno.. getting really tired of reminding him.. n also dun feel good about it.. having to keep an eye on some one my senior.. i really dun want to keep telling him off.. but .. is just that all the things he do are all not right to me..
is like when things are to be done the proper way he will do it the short cut way.. but when things can be done in just one simple step.. he did it in a longer way..
i want to do so much more.. i feel like just do my stuff n dun care about how he is going to get his things done.. but i just cannot do that.. i have a very bad habit.. if i see things not right.. i just cannot stand it.. ( wish that i am not there to see how the things are done..)
can i really just close one eye.. n carry on with my job.. then when he is not around.. go n help him clean every n put every thing in order!!! HOW??
Am very very tired... just came back from class... n found out that the course will only end next years June .. not March.. AH!! if is really true.. i am died meat.. the long sailing will start next years end of March.. that means i have to miss the rest of the classes n may even not pass the exams.. i really dunno how... have to do something about it loh...
hmmm.. about ytwo now.. i really dunno what to say.. even me.. feel like giving up n stop going back ... some of them still are not interested at all.. but some are ... what makes me so up sad n angry .. is that is so unfair.. to those who came n work hard .. why??? why is this world like that .. this things is not only true in the working live.. but even now.. in the school!!
people just dun understand.. they dun think for their friends.. all so self-centered....
i am not going to give up .. I AM NOT.. because.. there are still some that wanted this band to go fur.. YTWO can go very fur.. WE CAN!!... ( thank you ,to all the leaders n friends(members) who are still believing n to those who at least try to listen n help.. thanks a million )
is all about attitude. .. when you want it.. you will get it..!!!
Father.. .. keep me talking... keep me going.. keep me with you.. my lord .. my saviour...
Well.. the same thing again.. have been very busy.. n sailing n sailing.. haiz..! next month on.. will be even worst. .. every week sail for 2 to 3 days.. haha.. but ok lah.. kind of like the part where i get to see the big sky full of stars.. n just me n the sea... ( way to get off this busy world ) hehe..
ok .. there are a few things that really matters to me.. the first is my family.. my mum n dad n my brothers... my dad Now is in the USA... trying to find job there.. dunno if things will go well for him.. i pray that it well .. hmmm.. anyway.. my dad just call me 2days ago.. telling me alot of things.. it seems to me now.. that he really want me to go US with him after i finish my navy service.. (seems to have very high hopes that he can bring me there.. ) N to study n work in the US.. hmmm i am not very sure yet..
then... YTWO is also another thing that really matters to me.. i really wish that this band can do very well.. that the friends(student) can grow up n become somebody in the future.. we have lots of clever people .. but how to get them to love the band... i really am trying ,doing all i can for this to happen.. anyone? can give me some good suggestion on how to go about getting a group of youth together.. how to have them love what they are do????
i need some help here... thanks...
