long day of work..

hmmm.. just came back from sailing again.. haha.. not that bad lah.. very busy.. because 1 man down.. only get to sleep 2 hours for 48hs....
still thinking of them.. n tomorrow will be the first day i am not going back liao.. hmm.. nvm
anyway.. reach Singapore at 1630.. them quickly rush to meet my best friends for dinner.. haha
have a "ok " meal in this TAO restaurant.. ( haha.. the boss may be my Long lost brother)
the food there not too bad.. but the service i think is good in general..
have been studying..my day now is just three things happening.. work, study n gym.. very tiring ha..... sometimes so sleepy .. haha.. too long have not been touching the books liao..
ANYONE OUT THERE FREE TO STUDY WITH ME ON THE WEEK ENDS??! cannot study at home lah.. will end up sleeping.. haiz....

I JUST DUN FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE.
FEEL LIKE STARTING A NEW..

Leting go is never easy!!!

10 years.. finally letting go.. is never as easy as it seems.. have been thinking about it for a month..
n now i did it.. finally..
dunno what to say.. just am depress.. sad n dunno why. the feeling is like blue sky turns to grey!!
anyone know? haha.. i dun think so.
feel like i have fail totally.. but i did my best i possibly can for ytwo.. hmmm.. No regrets i believe.. after all .. is like free labour for 5 years liao.. hmmm.
My best friends are betting .. that i will go back within a month.. n that i will never be able to let go..
i really dunno.. REALLY DUNNO...
lots of words i wanted to tell them.. so much to say.. so.. so.. but in the end.. .. nothing ..
all i wish you YTWO is that you guys will quickly grow up.. love the band.. love to play music.. not just come for the cca points.. be a very strong band.. n prove yourself .. is not just a cca.. take it as a subject
i love ytwo very much.. is my every thing .. but now.. is the past..
hope one day.. i will be back. n that time.. i will be able to teach better.. n help you guys more. or even ..
achieve one of my dreams.... to be the band conductor of ytwo.... . . . . sad...............

ah??!!! time time time

hmmm.. very busy ah!!! time.. where..

Finally.. a load off.. hehe

hmmm.. today in general.. hehe.. is a happy day.. a bit EMO in the morning .. but i guess is all over.. i finally am able to put them down.. after 10 years .. hmmm..
i believe is Father, lord, god.. heehe .. that want me to.. To carry on with life.. n start doing some things for myself..
Well , i will still be there guys.. no worries.. is just that from now on i will not be putting you guys as my number one thing in live anymore.. guess that will not mean anything to you bah..
really wish you guys all the best.. n remember my friends.. never give up so easily.. fight till the end .. n most importantly.. every thing you do.. make sure is the right way. not the dirty ways.. stay as one.. protect n be with ,n for each other.., N you will Excel.. i believe you will.
MY GOD is with you.. he is .. hehe..

I am back.... haha!!

hi.. am back from 4 days sailing.. AHAHA.. so happy.. hmm. cut my fingers!!
anyway.. now a days, my fingers feel swollen at times.. hmmm.. guess is because of my work as a chef bah.. having to work in both very hot n cold places ..
worried , hope that it will not get any worst.. my grand father is also a chef .. n when he gets older, which is now, his fingers swollen up.. like jumbo hot dogs.. :p... hehe..
NOT goinG to happen to me i hope.. haha.. hmmm.. dunno if tomorrow will have band.. should be checking it out later.. got some important things that i need to tell the band..
Anyway.. things seems to become clear to me.. what to do n what should not be done.. some times i am thinking, is it time for me to let go n carry on with what i should be doing for myself.. is yet to be know.. lets hope i can find the answer tomorrow.. hehe..
most importantly.. I know i am a happy man.. blessed with lots of great friends , like YOU, n also under My Fathers wings.. Lord.. I love you.... THANK YOU....

Sailing Sailing N SAILING!!!!!

HAIZ. just came back from sailing again.. guess the busy sailing days are back again. every week with out fail.. next week sailing for the whole week again..hmmm..
again again again...
i am really starting to get sick of what is happening.. i dunno if i can carry on like this.. i really love to do what i am doing .. but with him always keep changing his mind .. never fail to push every bad things, that happen, to others..( in the first place , is he who wanted it that way ,most of the time .if not all!!)ME having to keep silents.. is just not me.. i really dunno if i am doing the right thing or not.. really wish that i can be like last time.. just with my sisters..
really want to tell him that i dun think i am fit enough to be. or should i say i dun like the way he do things.. ( just not right to me)... n just want to be like the pass..
i pray that Father. will give me a guide on this.. should i drop it n carry on to do my part OR keep going on..
Sisters.. i need some words of advice from you all.. thanks..