today...

hmmm.. nothing much happened today.. the same old thing.. cooking.. haha..
but tried out a new dish again,.. guess it turn out well.. ( steam mince pork wrap in chinese cabbage) lot of the crew likes it.. n haha.. deep fried curry chicken ..
anyway.. still in camp.. tomorrow going to try out something different again.. have been thinking very hard.. what to cook tomorrow.. hehe.. come up with this: deep fried KFC chicken wings, bake kong Pau pork.. hmm dunno if it workes .. but nvm.. should be ok.. haha..
just now went for a run again .. about 4.5km i guess.. then meet up with my church friends over dinner.. talk alot about Father.. i guess he never ever walk away from me before bah.. haha.. always there by my side.. THANK YOU LORD MY GOD MY FATHER!!. for being you .. always there guiding n answering my needs..
hmmm.. dunno what to blog about liao.. zzzzz ZZZzzzz... good night.. N GOD BLESS..
is all about believing n doing>>>>>
( oh yah.. almost forgotten.. if anyone of you out there have any good idea what to cook.. or what you think will be interesting n great to try n eat.. feel free to let me know k.. just put it under the comments or the tag board.. thanks)

things getting better... [=.=!]

hei!.. things seems to be getting better for now.. i really hope that this is the sign given by Father... that the down time for me n my family is finally going to end.. really dun think i can go any lower than this.. haha..
but i believe this things are there to make me a stronger person bah... hmmm i dunno..
anyway.. i am still in camp now.. long to go back home to see my mum.. but cannot.. hmmm.
NVM.. i think over here in my ship.. i kind of settled down liao.. every thing is under control.. hehe.. now even my chief decided to listen to my advise.. which i think is good .. n really save my department lots of trouble.. haha.. but still he need time to change lah.. still trying to find ways to EAT SNAKE sometimes!! .. hmm nvm..
new things coming up for me.. well firstly.. i will be starting my part time studies very soon.. hehe.. 19th of june.. (dip in hotel management) haha.. the only thing i am worried of is that i have to sail out almost every week.. so will be missing a number of lesson.. hei.. what to do.. just pary that i dun have to miss to much lah..
then the second thing ..is some thing i dun think is right for me to blog about... but is something happy for me lah.. a kind of hope.. :p .. for those who want to know.. just ask me when you see me loh.. will tell you if i think is ok for you to know.. haha.. (sorry yah)
hmmm.. now let me think .. anymore new things...
ah... yah.. almost forgot.. i finally am taking my sec school band (officially) liao.. hehe.. teaching them every sat.. so happy.. very tired but really am glad that i am given this chance.. hope that the students will help me out lah.. ( yTWO.. pls help me k.. n try to understand what i really want for you guys.. n Thanks a million for those who listen to me, n give me the support that i need.. as i always believe.. IS THE PEOPLE IN IT THAT MAKE THE BAND .. )
hmmm .. dun get me wrong ah.. i mean i am helping MR Chew to teach ah.. NOT that i am the instructor.. NO!NO!..
****FOR MY MOST LOVED FLUTE SECTION.. ****
girls .. All of you are my happy beans.. always making me happy without fail.. hehe.. thanks.. haha.. hmmm.. i promise k.. i will do my best to find time for the section.. I WILL !!!! but pls.. promise me that you girls will practise lah.. with my tight time table.. i dun think i can afford to reteach ah!! hope you all understand yah.. so whenever we have our sectionals ..hehe.. CONCENTRATE ok!!!!!!( seniors n X seniors of the section.. if you have time pls come back to visit the section n me lah.. miss all of you alot leh!!!!! ANGRY AH!!LoL)

Dunno where to start.!!!!

it has been a while i guess since i blog...
really dunno what to write... Sad n DEpress is the word.. very tired of every thing also...
this question have been in my mind ever since i came back from japan.. or should i say.. my mind set have changed since then...
why am i not born in a rich family. where i dun have to worry about money n just concentrate in my studies.. not having to stop because of No MOney to study.. i really dunno why..
why do i have to take over so heavy a responsibility when i am yet up to it. n every one thinks is easy... "saying i can do it!!!!!!!!!!"
why am i blessed with so many worries? why???? not all are mine to carry!!!.. they just push it to me because i looks like i am up to it.. yah yah yah!! i am.. if is one by one..
BUT IS NOT.. all this come at the same time...
i know i still can do it.. BUT ... i am reaching my limit soon.. VERY SOON!!!
do anyone know... that i even think of just killing myself last week. i really want to..
but what stop me is that i still have my family that needs me.. my mother n father...
i thought if i die .. at least there will be lots of money from my insurance , given to them.. hmmm
but .. i know is stupid lah. thats why i am still around.. then still have my friends n sisters from the flute section n ytwo.....
all that is in my mind now.. is to do my best in the navy.. study hard (part time) n get out of the force.. then work very very hard to become the best chef i can be.
i wish not to have the same thing happen to my own family in the future....
believe me .. one day i will be there.. with every thing i always wanted to be n have..

thank you Father....

Sorry.. too much for me!!!!

Sorry... things are going up n down.. everything... today can be good then the next thing very bad.. so really dun have the time n mood to blog.. when i have the time.. i will blog it all out slowly..
but still.. i want to thank God for every thing he bless me with.. good or bad.. is all under his control.. glory to the lord most high....

A normal day....

ok.. just came back from dinner with ling ling jia.. haha had a good meal.. hmmm.. she keep on asking me to eat n eat.. ah !! VerY full...
hehe .. ok .. from now on i think i will try to put in an entry of what i cook on ship for the day.. haha..
Menu of the day:
Nasi Lemak set..
Deep fried chicken wings
BBQ pork
Suger penut n ikan bilis
Sembal
fish cake.
veg soup
haha.. thats it .. lunch for the day.. :) gtg.. good night

Busy,bUsy, buSy!!!

OK.. have been very busy to get things right.. so many things happened the pass 2 weeks!!!
but dun think there is a point blogging about the sad things lah..
haha.. every thing is getting better now.. ( i dun think anyone would know what is going on)
NVM... the thing is .. for all my friends out there.. thanks alot for the care n concern..
i am alright now'.. esp Julia.. (haha thanks girl)
hehe today so happy.. she ask me if i want to have dinner with her .. haha.. ;)
it may be just a simple dinner to her.. but to me.. hehe.. hmmmm..
NO WORDS THAT I CAN SAY TO EXP MY FEELINGS.. hahah
anyway .. am going to do part time study soon.. taking diploma in hotel management lah.
i pray that Father will bless n guide me in all the things i do.. n really want to thank God for every thing.. i know this is a test for me that he had plan.. n i will become stronger as i walk n stay by his side.. To all my friends out there.. STAY BY THE FATHER NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH..BE IT GOOD OR BAD.. BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE ON EARTH THAT CAN LOVE YOU MORE THEN HE DOES.. as i always believe.. God will provide.. (n you need to work for it n believe in him also lah) ahyoh!!!!!