I am Back

hmmm.. dun really feel like bogging anymore.. dun feel like doing anything..
dunno what to say.. sad... :(
Just have this to say..
Father Lord.. i am your son.. i love you Father.. i know you are always there for me.. n i believe that what ever happen in my life is part of your great plan for me.. For you love all your children. Lord pls guide me . i need you Daddy.. i pray that you will hold me close to you Father.. n be there for me in all the things i do.. let me do it for you not for myself... because i know.. when you are the center ... nothing Will ever go wrong.. God.. Father ..Lord.. i love you .. thank you for all the blessing n plans you have for me. ..

A Fast one.. Hehehe

ok.. this will be vary short.. today the 3rd day in Japan liao.. (Nagoya by the way) tomorrow will be going off to ToKyo.. hai.. though that it will be a holiday for me.. but NOT LOH!!!!!!! found out that this trip is to go for a international convention of some Japan product.. but never the less i still get to see alot of this lah..
the air here is very cooling.. the most important thing is the people here are all very very nice.. they greet you every where you go.. SO NICE!!! if only Singapore will be the same...
O neeed to go liao.. anyway.. SIS.. sorry lah.. cannot find the things that you want yet... and also every thing is so X here.. i spent more then $80 (sing) just on the things that zhu zhu want.... hai... i will still try my best to get it lah k.. hehe.. Flute section.. i miss you girls alot.. hmmm.. take care k... see if can meet for dinner on sat... ;)
Father i want to thank you for the blessing of this trip.. i know what you want from me liao....

OK. this is Flute Section of year

2004 .. that is if i am not wrong lah..

over here is both Y2 n samwinds flute section.. is a gift from them before i go into the army.. HEHE .. sweet right...

Flying off tonight

ok.. this Will be a short one yah..
Firstly.. i want to say sorry to my sis lah.. i made her angry yesterday. when we are having lunch at LJS yishun .. hmmmm
Sister ah.. i am very sorry for what happen yah.. you know what i mean lah.. hehe..
so forgive me k.. n i know you will..
anyway.. i am flying off to Japan mid-night tonight.. w my mum lah..
i take this as a first n last break for the year loh.. hai!! no more leave liao..
so you guys out there .. take care yah.. esp.. Y2 n my beloved flute section .... going to miss you sisters men.. hai..
lastly.. i want to thank GOD for every blessing he give to me.. hehe.. Father.. you are the best gift i can ever ask for. as you always give the best to me n all your children.. Lord.. i Love you .. n i pray that you will protect n lead Y2 n the flute section members in their studies n their life.. guide them Father .. give them the gift of great music playing.. that will touch the listeners heart n soul.. like the way you touch mind .. Lord.. THANK YOU for being there for them.. n for me ..

About My Job as a chef in the Navy

this is how my ship look lke
Ok .. why do i want to talk about this job of mine!.. hmmm .. is very simple... i am going through a big problem at work.. which i have been trying to just take it easy.. but after what happen to me two days ago (my family problem thingy), i suddenly starts to see alot of things very clearly.... Firstly i am not going to let my family problems to go on like this..(which means i am going to try my very best to bring my family back together.. with the help of GOD.. hehe)

Then i am going to start doing my own self-study.. will be taking it slowly.. (still thinking what i am going to study first.. i have few things in mind.. to study music, cooking or sports.. hmmm.. or even F n B..) What do you think???

the 3rd thing will be about my work now .. Which i have a little bit of hard time..

you see.. as a naval chef.. your daily job will be cooking right.. very simple huh?

NO NO.. is only simple if you are a J chef.. (anyway as a J chef also not easy lah) J Chef junior chef lah. his primary job will be helping the L Chef & C Chef.. in cutting n washing.. alot of dirty job lah.. but dun really have to think too much.. just follow instruction can liao.. dun really need to answer to any problems..

As for the L Chef.. means Leading Chef.. for hotel the L Chef will be the supervisor chef lah.. N that is me.. i am a L Chef in my ship.. my job is to cook n think of what to cook.. teach my J Chef n help my C Chef .. like the hamburger lah.. i am the meat.. hai.

As for C Chef.. mean Chief Chef lah.. head of the department.. for his job.. he have to over look the cooking n also cook sometimes.. n indenting of the ship ration.. n also care for our well being..

but you know what... i feel like i am both the L n the C Chef... because i am doing both the job..

dun get me wrong k.. is not that my C Chef is lazy. is just that he is not a very clever person.. so alot of things he dun really know how to do.. OK.. Is like you rather he sit back n relax n let you do everything.. then you letting him do it.... because.. in the end after he do the thing.. you have to take more time to clean it up again...( my Chief Chef is a kind hearted person k.. is just that he dun really know what to do n what not to do only)

you know how i feel.. hmmm.. is very funny.. feel angry ,sad, happy, ah.. is a mix lah.. it would be easier if he is just good or bad... but he is neither good or bad.. hai..

Father i pray for you guidance, protection n for wisdom... that i will be more carefull of with i do n say.. n to see things the way you want me to see.. God i want to thank you n praise you for every thing you bless me with.. n may i be a blessing to others in your mighty name.. thank you Father.. amen..

Hannah sis n me!!!!

She vary cute n pretty Right.. haha.. but when she open her mouth.. ah yoh!!!!

Some Sweet Memories

Flute Section 2006..... Zhu Zhu where are you???????

BAD DAY!!

I woke up this morning ready to go to work.. but to my shock!!! my hand phone was stolen .. It was just beside me!! found out it was my brother that took it when i was asleep..
i know i should not blog about my family problem .. but i really cannot take it anymore!!!!
my dad lose his job 6 years ago.. so ever since he has been at home.. i dunno if it is really hard to find a job or what but.. he just cannot find any.. i already give up on the idea that he will find any job.. anyway he is already in his 50s.. just hope he Will stay happy n healthy.. ( anyway. my dad has a MBA k.. Master in Business Accountancy from USA)yet cannot find any job.. this tells me something that is very true.. in THIS COUNTRY AGE MATTERS THE MOST!!!!????
because of this i have to sign on into the navy.. i never like it in here.. but.. NVM..
then over this 6 years alot of things happened in my family.. my mum have to start working .. but after 2 years she also cannot take it anymore.. n she left the house to go back to Indonesia to stay with her sisters.. coming back once a while to see us then go back again.. has been like this the pass 3 to 4 years .. :( i love my mother alot .. n i know she love me too.. alot alot.. if there is going to be anyone that can love me 2nd to Jesus it will be her.. my dearest mother..
about my brothers.. as i need to start working n provide the income for this family.. i dun have much time to spend with them.. so our relationship became more like strangers then brothers.. i really dunno when n how.. they become from bad to worst every day.. my 2nd brother hardly at home.. always go out with his gang.. gambling like nothing.. sometime i really dunno where did he get his money from.. he just know how n where to get it. . i dun even know if he still take me as his brother or not... then the 3rd one.. n also he is the one that i love most.. what ever he want i will try my best to give him.. BUT now.. he steals from me.. took anything of from the house to sell .. YOU KNOW FOR WHAT????!!! i find it funny .. just to go funland n timezone to play.. n to show off to his friends that he is rich.. HELLO brothers.. 6 years ago.. we are rich.. but come on..... now we are poor.. just face the fact.. YOUR BROTHER, I, CANNOT DO THIS FOREVER.... i need your help!!! I NEED YOU ALL MY BROTHERS.. why can,t you get it.. N stop stealing .. 3 handphone you took away n sell it ..THREE!!! you know.. you think i am vary rich huh???? i really cannot take it anymore.....
I am 23 already.. i really need to start saving for myself .. how am i to do that when i have so many things in hands... i wanted badly to go back to school to study.. I REALLY WANT.. is not that i am the type that cannot study.. i can n i want.. but i dun have the money n time..
am I just finding stupid reasons or what.. i dunno.. i just want to let a happy life.. one that can help others n my family.. i love to see people smiling.. !!!! but my family.. they just dun smile.. last time i see all of us being happy as a family was 6 years ago... I hate MOney... because it TAKE away what true love means..kills what family love means.... IS JUST A PAPER.. THAT YOU USE TO EXCHANGE THINGS AROUND!!!!!!!!!( i know some of you will not agree with me.. but is just how i feel about money.. isn't it true that nation fights, families torn apart , brothers kills each other just because of money.. n is also because of own greediness)
i pray .. or maybe just never pray enough.. that GOD.. pls help my family.. help me lord.. there are times i really feel like just ending this life of mine.. is really very tiring.. but i know Father this is a test you gave me.. n you will never give any test more then i can handle right.. so Father i still want to thank you more n more.. I LOVE YOU MY GOD MY FATHER... help my family to come back together.. i cannot do this alone.. Father i pray n ask for your guidance.. amen

Everything is over... BUT I AM NOT READY FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TOday yt go for their syf.. n they came back with a Silver... i would like to thank Father for every thing he did for ytwo.. n also.. i know.. greater n better future awaits the band..
but.. i just dunno why i am so depress.. i know for sure is not because of the results .. as i felt that the band plays well today..n most importantly.. we all did our best.. n with the help of the lord.. we manage to get back a silver.. i believe that this silver is a high one.. well done band..!!!
NExt for my beloved sisters in the Flute section... I love all of you girls.. all of you makes me..
time pass too fast i feel.. every time when we are together.. i guess the reason why i am so Emo.. is all because.. i cannot let go.. i am going to miss the seniors in the section.. really.. esp PIGGY..
really have to take some time for me to let go.. hai..
ZHU ZHU.. promise me that you will be back k.. n got chance eat dinner together huh??? =.=.
sod sod.. :(
for the sec 4 leaders.. i really want to thank all of you for the respect n support you give me.. n i hope all the sec 4 will not leave the band with any regrets.. N MOST ImpORtANTly.. study hard yah n smart too.. i wish to see next year O level result top student all or most come from the band..
YTWO.. I LOVE YOU....!!!!!

Missing Someone

hmmm.. i dunno what to say.. but really start to have a bad feeling again.. kind of miss her.. Dun anyhow guess lah.. no one will know who i miss one.. never tell anyone before..
God .. help me to drop it pls. before it is too late. !!!!!
anyway.. sorry for the many wrong spellings...

ThINKiNG, mISSing N WisHING?!

Today is really a very very long day for me .. vary tired.. just came back from church.. my day started out with taking the yt wood winds then go out to makan.. with the flute section n Yanni..
hai... so long dun get to see her.. she look more skinny to me now.. hope she is doing well lah..
after food.. go back for band.. hmmm.. the practise is not a bad one.. or should say is good.. dunno why the band sound weak to me.. but nvm.. i guess is because they are just too tired.. hope they will get enough rest till the com day itself..
i was just thinking when i am in church... how god is so great to me and all my friends.. Father answered all my prayers one by one.. day by day.. i really want to thank you father for everything .. i know i say this everyday.. but i am not getting tired of it.. in fact.. i want to do this everyday.. thank you thank you thank you.. my heavenly father..:)
hmmm.. i am starting to have that feeling again.. i dun think is good.. have to stop it.. !!!
HELP HELP!!!!!!!
lastly.. i want to pray for yt band .. that lord.. you will protect them .. keep them save.. n bless them with good night sleep.. hehe.. n Father.. happy dreams.. THANK YOU AGAIN.. gd night!

Wake up too early

hai.. set my alarm vary early.. afraid that i might woke up late mah..


anyway just try to upload some pic loh.. hehe..
Well.. this is the flute section in the 2001 batch.
haha.. saw me?
this pic was taken on my ROD night.. haha. so long ago man!

A normal BUT happy Day .. hehehehe!!!

OK.. now.. today started vary lazy then went out to meet Hannah sis n piggy.. haha
Went to bugis then to Vivo lah.. hmmmm .. vary long since i go out liao.
is like 1 month to two!!
sis was like asking me to pay for almost every thing she want loh.. hmmm.. going broke liao lah
really like to see both piggy n sis smiling n joking all the way loh..
hannah was like laughing all the time haha
hope both of them enjoyed the day.. well if you ask me.. i really do enjoy the outing haha.. too bad jasmine cannot came along.. if not it willl be even more fun.. hehe
anyway.. when i was at vivo.. we went up to the top of the building.. ah yah.. i dunno what is that place call lah.. went there to soak leg.. then i look across to santosa..
In my mind i was thinking.. how beautiful is this place.. and i pray .. god.. i will work hard.. n one day .. i want to live in a house that can have the same view.. every morning facing the water n see the clear sky with the sea breeze blowing on my face.. like father telling me: " dun worry .. today n every day will be a smooth n great day for you.. as I will be always be there for you.. "
that i just need to follow him.. n every thing will be good.. no matter what happen FATHER will be there.. HE WILL PROVIDE
thank you father .. i pray to you now.. that every thing that i teach tomorrow will be of your guidance.. n the yt winds will learn fast.. n have a fruit full n joyous day.. THANK YOU LORD MOST HIGH...

Back From Sailing !-)

Hmmm... just came back from sailing.. then rush down to sunplaza to meet my sister, piggy n jas.. took a cab again.. wah liao.. $21 gone again.. i think i really neeed to start to learn to save...
hmmm.. but nvm .. i think is worth the money.. because seeing them really makes me happy n distress lah... haha if you ask me why .. hmmm i also dunno.. they just seems to be able to take away my stress for a while.. THANKS GIRLS!!! REALLY GREAT TO HAVE YOU GIRLS AS FRIENDS. HAHA
Then now about the 2days 1 night sailing.. hai.. dunno what to say lah.. i think i have been spending too much time in yt liao .. forget totally that i still have to work..
have not been doing my best in cooking for 1 month liao.. too tired n keep on worry for the com..well this will happen every 2 years.. hai..
my friends ask me why.. i just say is my passion i think.. even if it means to give every thing i have to help them i will.. haha .. is just what i love to do bah..
i hope when the com is over i will concentrate on my work bah... n also to start teaching the next batch of flute section...
God.. Father .. pls help me to plan my time properly.. n bless the section jr to be able to listen to me n practise when we starts the sectionals after the com.. lastly.. bless ytwo com batch. to have lots of rest n less stress from the school n family..
Father thank you for all your blessing n help you give to me all this while.. i love you Daddy.. you are the best that i can ever ask for...

First timer

today.. first time doing this.. haha.. took me about an hour n a half to set up this blog
hmmmm. now just testing only haha

anyway.. this pass one month really vary tiring n busy.. not in work but in yt.. the band is going for compition vary soon.. really wish that this time round they will get what they work for..
GOD ... they really work vary hard.. i pray to you that you will bless everyone of them.. really.. in very thing.. be it health , school work n friends n family.. Father i pray that they will be fully bless by you.. that no one n nothing can stop them to get what they have been working so hard for...

thats it.. anyway .. almost forgot.. today at work.. hmmmm.. NVM..
good night