When there is nothing to blog about.. nothing that seems to be interesting in my life now..
every thing is about work n nothing more.. every thing is about my family..
i lose my self.. not able to do whatever i like.. not able to go where ever i want..
not even know why am i doing this for.. when will i be able to .. live my own life..
the only love n hope i have is from the lord.. Father , God most high..
i dun want anything .. nothing.. i just want to be in his house.. his arms..
everything i do.. is working towards Father now.. he is my motivation.. he is my hope..
he is the one who loves me more then anyone on earth... more then anyone i know..
How i wish i can be right by his side soon.. very soon...
but not now.. there is still lots of things that he want me to do.. not yet.. sadly..
i have to live my life fully... for Lord, Father.. My God .....

CAN ANYONE OUT THERE MOTIVATE ME???
I REALLY NEED THE MOTIVATION NOW???!!!!!!!!!!!!
is the first time in my live .. i lose the motivation to work hard..
what is wrong with me??????????????????????????

Changing!!

ah well .. have not been blogging for weeks liao... haha.. really am tried n busy with work n study.. hmmm.. a friend of mine just went over sea to work.. FOR 2 YEARS!!!!! ahhhhh
i am going to miss her like crazy loh.. hmmm..MMM
time flies really fast .. really..
still do miss ytwo .. but after reading some of their blogs.. haha.. guess they are really doing very well.. YTWO.. JIA YOU!!!
as for me.. my family seems to have big problems .. but non of them want to know.. haiz.. nvm..
well i just do what ever i can loh.. haha.. after all.. this is already my best.. nothing more that i can do mah.. pray that God will do the rest bah..
anyway.. i started to change alot of my thinking .. on life.. haha.. n also on who should i go out with.. hehe.. it seems to me that i am much more happier now.. but still lonely lah..
How i wish that i will meet my right girl soon.. haha.. to share my happiness n joy.. n to be with me when i am down.. hehe...
ah yoh.. nvm.. is just a dream for the time being.. as for now.. is work n study that is the most important.. N ALSO NEVER FORGETTING.. LORD, GOD, MY HEAVENLY FATHER.. hehe
I LOVE YOU.>...

long day of work..

hmmm.. just came back from sailing again.. haha.. not that bad lah.. very busy.. because 1 man down.. only get to sleep 2 hours for 48hs....
still thinking of them.. n tomorrow will be the first day i am not going back liao.. hmm.. nvm
anyway.. reach Singapore at 1630.. them quickly rush to meet my best friends for dinner.. haha
have a "ok " meal in this TAO restaurant.. ( haha.. the boss may be my Long lost brother)
the food there not too bad.. but the service i think is good in general..
have been studying..my day now is just three things happening.. work, study n gym.. very tiring ha..... sometimes so sleepy .. haha.. too long have not been touching the books liao..
ANYONE OUT THERE FREE TO STUDY WITH ME ON THE WEEK ENDS??! cannot study at home lah.. will end up sleeping.. haiz....

I JUST DUN FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ANYMORE.
FEEL LIKE STARTING A NEW..

Leting go is never easy!!!

10 years.. finally letting go.. is never as easy as it seems.. have been thinking about it for a month..
n now i did it.. finally..
dunno what to say.. just am depress.. sad n dunno why. the feeling is like blue sky turns to grey!!
anyone know? haha.. i dun think so.
feel like i have fail totally.. but i did my best i possibly can for ytwo.. hmmm.. No regrets i believe.. after all .. is like free labour for 5 years liao.. hmmm.
My best friends are betting .. that i will go back within a month.. n that i will never be able to let go..
i really dunno.. REALLY DUNNO...
lots of words i wanted to tell them.. so much to say.. so.. so.. but in the end.. .. nothing ..
all i wish you YTWO is that you guys will quickly grow up.. love the band.. love to play music.. not just come for the cca points.. be a very strong band.. n prove yourself .. is not just a cca.. take it as a subject
i love ytwo very much.. is my every thing .. but now.. is the past..
hope one day.. i will be back. n that time.. i will be able to teach better.. n help you guys more. or even ..
achieve one of my dreams.... to be the band conductor of ytwo.... . . . . sad...............

ah??!!! time time time

hmmm.. very busy ah!!! time.. where..